no.

this chapter in my life is over

two years

two horrible, beautiful years

to be honest, it ended a year ago

but i wasn't ready to let go of it for a long time

i was still in love with the words

i was still in love with him



well i guess i still am

but i don't love these words the way i used to

because they are no longer mine

they are charles

they are not sarah's



it's time for sarah to write perhaps

let her have an honest voice

and honest chance of being herself

it's time for me to put the pen name aside

because it doesn't roll off the tongue the way it used to



thank you to all who read my words

thank you to all who listened to me speak

thank you to all who taught me

thank you for all those who let me try to teach them

thank you to all those who accepted charles with no hesitations

truly, i cannot thank you enough

i cannot fully thank you for the life you all saved



but now that this life is saved, it must go on

it must continue to thrive and survive

to experience all that there is left in the world

"all moons go through phases i guess."



so i guess this is goodbye

but i'm not truly leaving

my ghost will remain in these poems

left here to haunt all those who are in need of some memories

or are in search of some answers



i love you all



sincerely,



charles darnell