wake up
go to the bathroom
look in the mirror
hit
go to room
get undressed
try on a pair of jeans
look in mirror
hit
tear off the jeans
put on yoga pants
put on oversized shirt
walk upstairs
put on shoes
get in car
go to school
put on a good face
pretend you're alright
get home
go to room
strip down
look in the mirror
pinch the fat
pull the hair
claw at the stretch marks
hit
hit
hit
cry
hit
hit
hit
hit
stop
lay down
sob
breathe
admire the bruises
trace the broken veins
smile
breathe
go to dinner
eat too much
watch tv
go numb
get tucked in by mom
lie about the bruises
fall asleep
repeat
Freak... this HITS deep.
ReplyDeleteI wish I wouldve asked about your bruises.
ReplyDeleteReading it as a list made it less emotional and more emotional. I don't know what I'm saying.
ReplyDeleteNo, this is exactly what I was thinking. Incredibly different and so emotional.
DeleteHoly. Shit. Just got real.
ReplyDeleteWhoa.
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ReplyDeleteI appreciated every word of this
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